Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year, Friends!

See this picture? My sister took it the other day, while playing with my camera. At first I HATED it. A little too close for comfort. Every line, bump, imperfection seen. But then the more I studied it, I realized that that is how God sees me everyday. He is very UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL. He sees EVERY worry line, EVERY scar, EVERY hive, EVERY heart, that no amount of make up or photo shop can hide. I wonder how I look in His eyes today? What will I end up looking like tomorrow?

Today is a new day, the start of a new year.

Last year was super crazy, super wonderful, super heartbreaking, super scary, super fun and just plain super duper blessed. At the end of the day, deep down I know the rough moments were faith building, while the highs were memories for the "joy" jar in my heart. Looking back, I sigh in both relief and in sadness, for the past year was a road well traveled. In fact there were plenty of moments when I just had to be "carried" through, from weariness and rock torn feet. Yet, a part of me hates to say "goodbye." For among those rocks was great awareness and growth. God is good. Life might stink sometimes, but God is good.

So, I look at today, a little overwhelmed, for me being the "list maker" that I am, I have a whole list of things I want to do and accomplish, things I want to let go of and change, things I want to finally forget, paving the way to allow myself to forgive. I want to wrap myself in God's tender mercies and grace and start new and fresh. NOW!!!

But it isn't that easy. Letting go takes more than a list. Becoming organized takes more than a day. Changing the world takes one day at a time...

And if I am not careful, I fall back into my rut of what is "easy."

No, I need to take this slowly. One prayer at a time. One task at a time. One child of God at a time. I need to just simply be available and let God Almighty work out the kinks. After all, He is better at making a spreadsheet than I am. It helps when you have the ability to see ahead and can see the goal accomplished. It helps when you can read hearts, know minds and have unfailing love in your corner. It helps when you are the definition of GRACE itself.

So where does that leave me today?

Approaching the new year with optimism, with determination, with awareness and with great hope. None of us knows what this year may hold, for our families, our friends, our towns and our country. There are no guarantees in this world. The only guarantee I have in life is that at the end of the day "God is love."

And for some reason He loves ME and has a plan for ME. Despite the crow's feet, adult acne, allergy eyes and sinful heart. WOW!

So, lists are crumpled and put in the trash. Resolutions already forgotten. Goals are even put on the shelf. For you see, at the end of the day, if I just soak myself in God's love, through prayer and study, this year will happen and God will grace me with the right tools to see each day through. The Bible even says not "to worry about tomorrow for it has enough worries of it's own."


So does that mean I just camp myself out on the couch, day and night and soak in His word? Oh, that would be nice, wouldn't it? No, I am still going to be a busy mom and wife with plenty to do and accomplish. There would be a rebellion in the house, if bills didn't get paid, underwear washed and meals cooked, not to mention the job I'm employed to do outside the home...

No, I think what I am trying to say is this; I am going to try to just take one day at a time, laying my burdens before the Lord, praising Him for the strength He provides daily. I can't help but think if I stop trying to "control" everything, and allow God to work His miracles, the me and mine would be a whole lot better off in the long run.

So what did 2010 teach me, if anything?

That at the end of the day, God is in control. You can either jump on board for the ride of your life or you can watch helplessly from the station, going nowhere. I think I am ready to see what adventures 2011 holds, what about you?

And if it adds a few more wrinkles, then so be it. It will also add a little joy to my heart.

Happy New Year!


Joyeful said...

I love this post! This is how. I. feel. about God's grace and our resolutions. Exactly! Thanks, Mich!!!

Amber said...

Look! I'm back in the blogosphere. At least for today.

But I'm so glad that I was back on this day.

Because I heart you. And so loved soaking our seconds up this past week.

Love you muchly.....

(and you have my address for the royalty check on that picture...*wink*....)

Kristin said...

Happy New Year, Mich! I want to jump on for the ride of my life too :) Loved this post!

Sharon Sloan - Joy In The Truth said...

Love this post! HIS hope, grace, mercy, provision, faithful and purpose fill our days. :)

Blessings for 2011, Mich!

Kellie said...

Great thoughts. :) The best we can do each day is give everything back to HIM. Happy New Year!

Stacie, A Firefighter's Wife said...

That was well written and beautifully expressed.

I can relate to your year. I am really hoping next year will be quite different in the "health" department.

Have a wonderful new year!

Anonymous said...

This is a heart perfect New Years Post! It almost makes me feel guilty for my "Go, Go, I would Not have You Back Again" again New Years quote - LOL - after all, I'm sure the Israelites really wouldn't want those 40 years back, or the locuts, or the angel of death - but I will store up in my heart the enduring, ever-powerful love of God who helped me make it through such a challenging year! I totally love your line: "the highs were memories for the "joy" jar in my heart" - the joy jar of my heart - I think you need to do a weekly meme with that title!

Happy New Year - I am so glad to have met you this year this year via the blogahood!

Jules said...

Happy New Year to you and your family...

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

Jumping on board with Jesus as well. Life on the sidelines is no fun at all... and little faith is grown on the sidelines!

Keep to it; one day at a time, and i'll do the same.


He & Me + 3 said...

The picture is beautiful. I love close ups. This was an awesome post. God is in glad about that.

Gretchen said...

Lots of good stuff here, Mich. Loved every word. And the picture.

Jim said...

How can I add to what has been said already by others who recognize your written giftedness! I agree - the "joy jar of your heart" needs a regular platform from which to "spill" into other jars!