I tend to be a worry wort. I think I inherited this worry gene. My hubby says I can over think anything and that I look for trouble before it finds me.
Looking back, I think I get it honestly...from my two grandmothers. My Granny could worry you to death. My Nanny and my Dad would get into it all the time over her worrying...they finally just decided to disguise the word and call it "concern."
But how can you be a "good" mom and not worry just a little about your little chicks? I can't. The older I get, I can sympathize with my grandmas. I have to be honest, I worry when my kids are out of my sight. I worry about their health and safety, the decisions they make, how they treat others and how others treat them... it is a constant battle in my brain.
Does it consume me? No. I just randomly have my mommy radar on and feel the need to say a prayer for them throughout my day. That is unless there is an issue of real concern.
It seems like the older they get, there are more and more "issues of concern." Health issues, like all this flu stuff going around, my son with four wheelers and hunting trips with his dad, my daughter staying more and more at friend's houses and going to dances, hurt feelings, kids being mean, pressures of school, and the list goes on and on... it is enough to keep this mom in the bad habit of nail biting and leave me with butterflies in the tummy all day. Can you say ulcer?
What is a mom to do?
Well, this is what this mom did today... I came home on my lunch break, poured my heart out to the Lord, found a promise from Him in His Book, wrote it down and kept it in my pocket all day, pulling it out as a reminder when needed.
For family and friends reading this, don't WORRY, nothing is wrong with the kids right now. I just have a few little things, issues that "I" am going to have to let go of. I'm going to have to realize my kids are growing up, changing before my eyes and may "think" they need me less. You see, just like I don't think you can be a good mom without worrying at least a little, I think a GREAT mom knows where to take those concerns. Which is something I am working on...letting go, and trying to let God.
I will still be "concerned." But I have decided to give up today, and let God do His job. He really is better at it than me, anyway.
Oh, and in case you want to know what verse I carried around in my pocket all day...
"Do not be anxious for anything, but in EVERYTHING, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the PEACE of God which TRANSCENDS ALL UNDERSTANDING will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. " Phil.4:6-7
Doesn't get any better than that for a worry wort like me...