This has been a busy week for my emotions. I have been on a roller coaster that started with nervousness, climbed slowly towards a little joy, only to barrel down at high speeds into tears, looped into laughter, came to a complete stop from the drama and I was able to stand and walk away. AND IT IS ONLY WEDNESDAY!!! But isn't that how life really is?
Sunday I had the blahs, which the Lord turned into pure sunshine when He gave me a verse. Yes, I totally believe He gave it to me, wrote it for me, decreed I would hear it last Sunday. Why? Because He loves me and knew I would need it. This is MY verse. But hey, I'm willing to share it. I can be nice like that sometimes...
1 Peter 4:8-11 Powerful stuff.
There have been situation after situation, this week alone, where I have been called upon to "love deeply," serve "without grumbling," "show grace," and totally rely on the "the strength God provides."
Yet, the part of this particular scripture that grabs at me, eats at me, gnaws at me, totally leaves me humbled is; "If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God."
Is that even possible? Shoot, I might as well give it up and quit now. After the week I'm having there is absolutely NO WAY the words that have escaped my lips have all been God spoken words. My thoughts certainly haven't been all glorious. Yet, there is a urgency for me to try.
There is a desire to want to attempt to have the purest of heart, so that my words could eventually one day have at least a "sounds like" God tone.
I have to go back to verse 8 and realize that the "love that covers a multitude of sins" is not just a reminder of how I should treat and show love to others, but rather a gift given to me by the Heavenly Father. He knows I'll never be perfect. He knows my lack of fluent God thoughts and words. But He has this wonderful gift of love, tied up in grace for me. If that doesn't leave you in total humility and awe, than I don't think anything could.
"If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God."
So He is basically telling me...
When my children disobey...HIS WORDS, not mine.
When on the phone with the AT&T lady and we have a difference of opinion...HIS WORDS, not mine.
When someone at works is allowing gossip to enter the work area...HIS WORDS, not mine.
When you would love to shout to your kids "HATE IT!", but you are trying to pick your battles...HIS WORDS, not mine.
When feelings are hurt...HIS WORDS, not mine.
When you feel angry and snubbed...HIS WORDS, not mine.
When everyone is rushing around with first day of school jitters...HIS WORDS, not mine.
When your baby hurts...HIS WORDS, not mine.
When you just want to be mad...HIS WORDS, not mine.
Oh to be like Jesus... I'm thankful God does see my heart, knows I really am trying, instead of just reading my mind and hearing me speak. He is "grace" ful, like that.