Thursday, June 18, 2009

The answer was "no."

A few weeks ago I had asked for prayer for my hubby's health and for an unspoken prayer request. I received a lot of encouragement from my bloggy friends. Thank you so much.

Kevin is doing much better these days. He still has a few "off" days when he just doesn't have much energy or has a few aches and pains he wished would go away. But he is doing better. The doctor says he retains fluid which causes many of his problems, however we are beginning to think he had a virus on top of everything else that week, that was making his body do crazy things. Whatever it was, I pray that he daily continues to feel better. Thanks for keeping him in your prayers. Ministry can be stressful at times, so when you don't feel good, it is even harder.

As for the unspoken, God answered my prayer and it was a "no." I am alright. Do I wish the answer was "yes?" I had mixed feelings about the whole thing, but yeah, I kind of wanted a nod in that direction. But I also know I gave the request to God and asked for His guidance. He didn't have to send a burning bush, lay manna on the ground or tear down a wall, for me to get His answer this time. The circumstances just declared "no."

I have learned that a "no" doesn't mean my prayer was not answered. It just may not have been answered the way I would have liked, during a time frame of my choosing. He has a plan. And although it can be scary to wait, in the end His plan is always best. All He asks of me is patience and a little faith.

I will not lie. Underneath it all, I'm frustrated, sad and a little let down. But, I'm trying hard to chose a different path. God has been teaching me so much lately... well I know I am going to be alright.

Please continue to keep me in your prayers. I may have received a "no" to one part of my unspoken request, but the situation is still out there. I still need to be on my toes, listening for God's total answer to my request, with a willing heart to obey. I am also going to need lots of strength in order to be patient. (Not one of my better qualities.)

Thanks for reading (and listening).


Hope said...

It is good you are staying focused on looking for His will in His time. It is difficult. You have the right attitude...keeping your trust in Him.

I will be praying for you today.


Amber said...

I love you.

Jim said...

What your Sis said goes "gazillyariple" for me!


Gretchen said...

I don't know why "no" is so much harder to hear than "yes", but it is. Prayed for you--for God to be palpably evident and present for you and your fam.

Sharon@JoyInTheTruth said...

This scripture came to my mind as I read this post:

Isaiah 30:15
"This is what the Sovereign LORD, the Holy One of Israel, says: "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength..."
I love that..."in quietness and trust is your strength."

Praying for you and will watch (read here) to see how He is leading you in that "out there situation". :) He is faithful!

Two good books by Lysa TerKeurst:
"What Happens When Women Say Yes To God" and "What Happens When Women Walk By Faith". :)